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[alexora]

Originally Posted by SynchroDub

Yeah, that sounds good.
If I was 18 or in my early 20's, I probably would have opted for a night out on some club.
But, after having gone through some very tough moments in my life, these days, I prefer anything that's as simplistic and peaceful as possible. Nothing too fancy or chaotic.
A dinner with all my relatives, maybe a couple of drinks, and then just some music and just go to sleep.

My best ever NY celebration was welcoming the year 2000: with a bunch of friends we rented a large apartment with a big balcony overlooking the main medieval square of a small coastal village.

We prepared an epic multi-coursed meal, had ample supplies of quality booze and drugs (back then I used to take them), and used the apartment as a VIP lounge while the square below had been turned into a disco with DJs and live bands.

I didn't hit the sack 'till about 10:00am, and only rose in the early evening of Jan 1st.

It was perfect in every way.

[SynchroDub]

Originally Posted by alexora

My best ever NY celebration was welcoming the year 2000: with a bunch of friends we rented a large apartment with a big balcony overlooking the main medieval square of a small coastal village.

We prepared an epic multi-coursed meal, had ample supplies of quality booze and drugs (back then I used to take them), and used the apartment as a VIP lounge while the square below had been turned into a disco with DJs and live bands.

I didn't hit the sack 'till about 10:00am, and only rose in the early evening of Jan 1st.

It was perfect in every way.

That sounds very good.
There was a time I used to go to "wild" parties, too, and come back the morning after. I never did drugs at those parties, but was drinking a lot of Montenegro and Jack Daniels, and smoke cigars heavily.
I remember, one time, that I took 10 capsules of 500mg of L-Arginine, right before a party. I had a couple of "runs", 1 hour after I took the pills. But, after that, I was literally high as a barking dog for the entire night....it felt like I was on Coke.
Full of energy, very flirty with the girls and "the star" of a pretty boring casual night out with friends. I even danced (which I never did before, prior to that night), and done lots of comedy sketches. Good times.
Then my mother got ill and passed away, and I get caught by the demon of depression. I would locked myself in my condo even for months, not answering back to friends texts and phone calls, and would just eat, smoke a lot and sleep all day. I wouldn't even shave myself for days or even get a haircut. I was miserable.
I was basically living the Layne Staley lifestyle, but without the drugs, literally.
Thankfully I made it through. But some "wounds" will never ever heal completely.

[alexora]

Originally Posted by SynchroDub

That sounds very good.
There was a time I used to go to "wild" parties, too, and come back the morning after. I never did drugs at those parties, but was drinking a lot of Montenegro and Jack Daniels, and smoke cigars heavily.
I remember, one time, that I took 10 capsules of 500mg of L-Arginine, right before a party. I had a couple of "runs", 1 hour after I took the pills. But, after that, I was literally high as a barking dog for the entire night....it felt like I was on Coke.
Full of energy, very flirty with the girls and "the star" of a pretty boring casual night out with friends. I even danced (which I never did before, prior to that night), and done lots of comedy sketches. Good times.
Then my mother got ill and passed away, and I get caught by the demon of depression. I would locked myself in my condo even for months, not answering back to friends texts and phone calls, and would just eat, smoke a lot and sleep all day. I wouldn't even shave myself for days or even get a haircut. I was miserable.
I was basically living the Layne Staley lifestyle, but without the drugs, literally.
Thankfully I made it through. But some "wounds" will never ever heal completely.

I lost my mother too, in 2010.

There is nothing worse.

[SynchroDub]

Originally Posted by alexora

I lost my mother too, in 2010.

There is nothing worse.

I lost mine when I was only 17.....such a very great loss, for me.
She was more than a mother, to me. She was the sister I never had, my very best friend. I could talk about anything with her, even sex.
Unlike my father who has always been too busy with himself and his work, and not very present for me, she was the only person that taught me everything I needed to know about sex and romance. And she would even let me watch Porn, when I was still a teen.
I could have even showed to her lubes, toys and other bedroom stuff, and she wouldn't ask or say something negative about it.
She always said to me: "I prefer that you enjoy yourself safely and even watch Porn/horror movies, rather than doing drugs or catching HIV with a complete stranger".
She was very religious, yet she didn't say anything when I started studying and researching Satanism and other Left-Hand path philosophies. And she never forced her religious views on me when I turned 14. She was just a very open-minded and understandable person, with a baggage of knowledge, education and experiences.
My father, on the other hand, has never had the fortune to live in a open-minded family, unfortunately. Being a Sicilian, he embraced all the traditions and the closed-minded attitude and typical possessive nature of the South of Italy father-husband. Very possessive, and sometimes even very meaningful to my mom (in a bad way).
We never really got along at all, nor we even had the time to sit down and talk about something, peacefully. And we still do, even after all these years.
He never really understanded my personality and sensible character at all.
But that's the way it is. That's how he is. What's to change?
I'm turning 30, next week. It's time to make my own family, make some new projects for my future and definitely move on with my life.

[Namcot]

Katherine what?

I wasn't aware Cybernetic Organisms could procreate!

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[Wallingford]

When trying to outrun a lion, you don't have to be the fastest, you just can't be last.

[ReclaimedMdT]

New York is looking to legalize marijuana in the very near future. Even with 20+ years of a substance free lifestyle I’m very interested to see how it all turns out. Why you ask? It’s all so I can get a decent night of sleep. My sleep schedule has been upside down and ass backwards for years. I’ve tried almost every over the counter and home remedy you can think of but nothing touches me. I’ll get about 2 or 3 hours then I’m up feeling groggy and miserable. I’m looking to marijuana as a last resort. I wish insomnia fell under the medicinal guidelines in NYS but sadly it doesn’t. I don’t want to have to worry about qualifying for some silly card anyway. I’m genuinely hopeful that the state of New York does legalize it.

Am I willing to walk away from 2 decades of living drug free in order to get some sleep and not be a miserable fuck in the morning? Maybe...

[SynchroDub]

Originally Posted by Dead Optimus

New York is looking to legalize marijuana in the very near future. Even with 20+ years of a substance free lifestyle I’m very interested to see how it all turns out. Why you ask? It’s all so I can get a decent night of sleep. My sleep schedule has been upside down and ass backwards for years. I’ve tried almost every over the counter and home remedy you can think of but nothing touches me. I’ll get about 2 or 3 hours then I’m up feeling groggy and miserable. I’m looking to marijuana as a last resort. I wish insomnia fell under the medicinal guidelines in NYS but sadly it doesn’t. I don’t want to have to worry about qualifying for some silly card anyway. I’m genuinely hopeful that the state of New York does legalize it.

Am I willing to walk away from 2 decades of living drug free in order to get some sleep and not be a miserable fuck in the morning? Maybe...

My advice?
Whatever you do, man, stay the hell out from Valium, Xanax and Klonopin. Once you get on that stuff, it's a complete nightmare trying to get off of all that chit.
Besides, instead of relying on drugs, have you tried having a cup of milk with some honey, Valerian root drops or just plain magnesium?
I suffered from sleep deprivation/disorder problems for 2 years. Ever since I started a tablet of 100mg of Magnesium, 2 hours before bedtime, every night, I sleep heavenly and tightly.
You should really consider some natural remedies, if you haven't already done so.
Give them a try for a couple of weeks. See how they work.
Hope you'll get your sleep problems sorted out, someway.

[ReclaimedMdT]

Originally Posted by SynchroDub

My advice?
Whatever you do, man, stay the hell out from Valium, Xanax and Klonopin. Once you get on that stuff, it's a complete nightmare trying to get off of all that chit.
Besides, instead of relying on drugs, have you tried having a cup of milk with some honey, Valerian root drops or just plain magnesium?
I suffered from sleep deprivation/disorder problems for 2 years. Ever since I started a tablet of 100mg of Magnesium, 2 hours before bedtime, every night, I sleep heavenly and tightly.
You should really consider some natural remedies, if you haven't already done so.
Give them a try for a couple of weeks. See how they work.
Hope you'll get your sleep problems sorted out, someway.

Have tried a glass of luke warm milk with a splash of vanilla and teaspoon of honey. It worked briefly. This last year I’ve ventured into the melatonin. The result? About an hr of sleep and back to tossing and turning.

[SynchroDub]

Originally Posted by Dead Optimus

Have tried a glass of luke warm milk with a splash of vanilla and teaspoon of honey. It worked briefly. This last year I’ve ventured into the melatonin. The result? About an hr of sleep and back to tossing and turning.

Have you tried Valerian root, Ginseng or Magnesium?
They're all very effective natural remedies for treating anxiety and stress, but they also work very well as sleeping aids.